When I first saw you

When I first saw you,

I was afraid to meet you

When I first met you,

I was afraid to hold you.

When i held you,

I was afraid to kiss you

When I first kissed you,

I was afraid to love you

when I started loving you,

I'was afraid to lose you. 

Now when i have lost you,

I am not afraid of anything.

The first time we kissed

I remember those endless, youth-blessed days

like they were great bursts of color splashed against the sun.

I recall the taste of your lips, how your body would lay

in shared bedrooms of love before we came undone.

Your touch leveled lesser men, and I was broken in half

tormented by a depth of emotion I could not articulate.

I celebrate you in arcs of time, please do not laugh;

these memories possess a value I cannot estimate.


I remember those reckless, grief-stricken, suicidal nights

where we were first spiraling out of control.

I recall every anonymous lover, the ceaseless fights,

the dangerous jockeying between two star-crossed souls.

You left many men behind you, surely there are more to come,

and they will fail to appease you with their hearts.

I explain you in these verses, you left me stunned,

soon to be stripped of all dignity and ripped apart.


Old lover, you do not recognize me now, I am lost

in a previous life you do your best to disavow.

I assure you that I have paid the heaviest cost

for those days when I wanted to live but did not know how.

I silence you now and commit you to the gulf of ages

where old passions recede into shadow and mist.

And you will live forever here in my place of pages,

old before my time, remembering the first time we kissed

the story of me n her.

"Forget her name, forget her face,
Forget her kiss and her warm embrace.
Forget the love that you once knew,
Remember she has someone new.
Forget her when they played ur song,
Remember when u cried all night long.
Forget how close u once were,
Remember she has chosen other,
Forget how u memorized her walk,
Forget the way she used to talk,
Forget the things she used to say,
Remember she has gone away,
Forget her laugh forget her grin,
Forget the dimples on her chin,
Forget the way she holds u tight,
Remember she’s with him tonight.
Forget the time that went so fast,Forget the love that moved, it’s past.
Forget she said she’d leave u never,Remember she’s gone forever".

.................................................................................................................................
“ though I loved her,
But she had to break my heart for me to know What true love really is”
................................................................................................................................
“You can say anything about me.
As u please……………………
But I am what I am And that’s something,
That u can never be “.
.......................................................................................................................................
“Over n over I tried,
Over n over U lied,
Over n overI cried(I don’t know y)”

hi noni Thu, 8 Sep 2005 (The Past)

Date:	Thu, 8 Sep 2005 13:23:51 +0100 (BST)
From:	"daisy kondal" Add to Address Book
Subject:	hi noni
To:	"hubby"

hey shona

i think dis is d first ever e-mail dat im writing to you.

vivi i love u very very much. i cant even dream of goin anywhere without you.

watever i do has a reason behind it and the reason is always you n to b with you.

i kno we r goin to b together soon.

vivi il study hard so dat our kids dont think that im a weak head. il work hard.

nonu i love you.

vivi i kno sometimes i hurt u unintentionally. i say some things. some WORDS wich i actually don mean. il take care . im sorry.

vivi tk gud cr f urself.

vivi though im not gud at expressing but i reeeeeelly miss u wen u rnt around.

life's gona b real nice wen vl b together 4vr.

i love you.

DAISY BHATNAGAR

Betrayal of love

Naked lies, stripped souls and dirty secrets.
Closest encounter of nasty little facts.


Of all good masks beneath have ugly faces.
Like, behind all closed lips smiles have ugly braces.



Innocent face can not hide the cruelty of eyes.
And every poor soul knows too much, he dies.



Betrayal of love, murder of faith and rape of trust.
Every act and every move only deserve disgust.



So much of hatred and so much of fear.
When you discover a devil inside your dear.



Wound for care, hurt for affection and sorrows for love.
Screaming with joy, watching a bleeding dove.



I am the god of lust, hate, pain and cruelty.
In this new world, I am the SYMBOL OF SEXUALITY.

those moments with life

I left her alone, that night, she was sleeping on the bed.
Her voice was still ringing, each and every word she said.

How she held me, kissed me and made me feel her.
How she blinked so cutely and whispered in my ear.

“I am yours, only yours, and I love you”, she muttered.
And I felt her soft touch in every of my body part.

It’s been time or so when I found her on the shore of ma life.
She was gazing at some one, as if she’s standing there all alone.

I stood next to her quietly, kissed and looked at her.
Oh! I could say she was waiting for me all this year.

That time, was again the time of love and lust.
No way could it be over, so early so fast.

I started from her lips and ended kissing her toes.
Her soft curves made me forget all my woes.

Those erect mountains felt so nice and warm.
Her deep navel made my manhood so firm.

I explored her mysterious part hidden in her thighs.
And once again it took us both into all new highs.

Again we were merged into each other as if like forever.
I was feeling so good, as I buried deep down into her.

After a long, I found myself in her arms, so drained.
She kissed my lips and said, “Don’t you ever leave me again”.